A lot of stuff happened in the past few weeks. I'll admit, things were just crazy <and insert several of your thoughts here>. I'm just so tired, so mentally drained. At times I felt like screaming. The last post I did after that, several people still come to the hospital. If you compared to the first MCO and this RMCO, more people are actually coming in. During the first MCO, it was a literal ghost town.
This RMCO...I'm going to be honest here. People acted as though the MCO is over. Did you know that our cases are skyrocketing every single day? I am so scared to even check the news because it was so depressing. Don't believe me? Here's October's COVID case: (I can't seem to adjust the chart size, not to worry, I have listed the numbers out for you)
1st: 260
2nd: 287
3rd : 317
4th : 293
5th : 432
6th : 691
7th: 489
8th: 375
9th: 354
10th: 374
11th: 561
12th: 563
13th: 660
14th: 660
15th: 589
16th: 629
17th: 869
18th: 871
Source: Kementerian Kesihatan Malaysia http://covid-19.moh.gov.my/archive:oct_2020
This is not funny, and it's not a joke. I'm not going to lie, I'm scared. Working in the healthcare line, if one person gets it, then everyone gets affected. Shopping malls, other healthcare centers...Some are forced to close for a few days due to the rising cases, and I've seen many local independent shops falling because they are unable to sustain the cost. I have friends selling knickknacks, snacks, food, products just to earn some side income, and who could blame them? We have to do what we can to earn some side income. What irks me was people criticize us, saying we shouldn't be doing two jobs. I am going to be straight up honest here. I have been writing books for years now, as early in my school days. What started off as a hobby for fun became something I could utilize as a side income (but at the end of the day, it's still a hobby, something that I am passionate about. If I could earn some income, great. If not, that's okay, I'll still keep writing as long as I have the time), because that's how most people got started. If you love doing handcrafts and cooking, and people love it and are willing to pay for it, then why not? I could go on and on about how I got started on writing but I'm not going to do it right here because it will probably take forever.
Economy was so bad that prices are going up, but salary are staying stagnant. People are losing jobs, cutting costs, trying to save what they can... Yet I still hear people are complaining on how life is tough. Life is tough, that is why I always tell myself to be grateful with what I have, even the tiniest thing...be grateful. I still thank my lucky stars I still have a job, a salary that is not lucrative but enough to put food on the table and support my family, enough to buy books (I can't spend overboard, so I now only aim on books that I really, really love)... So yes, I am grateful. Life is full of negatives, but as a kind doctor once told me: "Focus on the little good things in life, be grateful and say thank you." It's hard, but I am trying.
As mentioned before, the last few weeks, especially the recent days has been so depressing. So I won't put it up here too much, because Lord knows we need some happy news. Since I'm going to be on a long break, I'll be reading, organizing my bookshelves, baking some cookies, making ice cream (Cookies and Cream are my favorite, tied with Belgian Chocolate (Not too sweet, just the right amount of bitterness)) and of course, writing. So I won't be posting for a while. People often said to me: "I don't know what to do on my days off." I'm not going to preach, but do what you love. Tidy up the house, play with your doggies, listen to your favorite music, read, draw, call up a friend or family to hear their voice...Find something that makes you happy, because it's your day off. You deserve a break, take care of yourself. As the wise WHO always said:
On a parting note: Take care, stay at home, and if you really do need to go out -
Source: Schwartz, Peter, MD, PhD, Your Behavior, Your Health, Our Pandemic (17th July 2020) https://medicine.iu.edu/blogs/bioethics/your-behavior-your-health-our-pandemic. Retrieved on 19th October 2020
PS: By the way, I gotten emails on how come I don't allow comments on my blog. It has nothing to with you, my dear readers, but after seeing how people behave in social media, I am downright scared. This is the reason why I don't update my status much, but for this blog, this is a place where I just want to share with you the journey of being a nurse: The good, the bad, the ugly, all of it but in a way that it doesn't disrespect everyone. So please understand why I have been turning off the comments lately.
PSS: Speaking of old friend, I just found him. He's a fellow blogger and talented photographer. Not going to lie, I pop in on and off to look at his photos. God, those pictures are breathtaking. Here's the link to his blog: https://kurczakauron.blogspot.com/
*Update: Today's total case: 865
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