13th December (Saturday) - I'm supposed to be on noon duty, and I really want to go to work, to see my patients, my colleagues, the nice profs... Anything is better than staying at home. Although I had a jolly good time reading my Harry Potter books, if the sedation doesn't make me woozy and lie back on my pillow.
Today I purposely took the morning to do a gastroscopy since I was having some slight pain at my upper tummy. Its my first time doing a scope and I pray to heaven that all goes well. I don't want any other diagnosis coming out since it's already bad enough that I had to take medications for my gastric, my nose, and supplements. *gasp* I don't want any more medications. TwT
I thought the prof is going to give me something that'll keep me awake, like how I did my eye surgery last time. But for this round, he gave me a full sedation that made me sleep. He tried looking for my vein and went, "Your vein is really small." Yep, it's true. Everyone had a hard time looking for my vein because they say it's tiny to the point where they need to keep hitting my vein, or tightening my arm as hard as they could to get the vein. I thought prof was going to poke me a branulla but instead, the last thing I felt and heard was as darkness pull me down was, "I'm going to give you the sedation now. Sleep." And there was a prick like an ant bite and everything turned black.
Next thing I knew the lady was patting me on the shoulder, telling me I had slept for an hour straight. Say WHAT???? I was still half awake and muttered, "The scope is done already?" And she was like, "Long time ago." I asked her the time and she said it's already 10, golly gee. I DID slept for an hour. And my mind seems not to be working clearly. The lady had to support me as I get down from the bed, and she commented that my flats were nice. Ehehe, I gotten it a long time ago at Puchong, 70 percent discount. She sighed and said she missed her chance. But I assured her that there'll be a next time (If the flats are still there.)
Because I was K.O.ed for the whole duration of the scope, I asked my dad the result and he said that my stomach was okay, nothing wrong with it, although prof took some of my gastric juice for investigation to rule out something. He didn't mention it to me, but he said that my gastric attacks occurs if I'm too nervous, panicky or being on an empty stomach. What??? Is that why my gastric attacks comes often these days? How weird. He gave me some Korean drug that can strengthen my stomach's mucosa lining. Since I'm still on the gastric medication, which is totally different, I still have to continue taking it.
I had wanted to go to work, really I do, but the girl and prof were like, "NO! You can't. You're not going to work with that condition of yours. You might faint during work." What could I do but call the Sister through the phone to inform her I was given a one day MC for resting purpose. Sigh. Bad luck. My body just have to doze off on me.
I was sedated once with gas as a child. Half way through losing consciousness, knowing everything was turning white, I sat up and pulled the mask off. Like an animal that understands it has fallen into a trap. They held the mask on my face and- goodnight. I respect the work that you do. And what you do is very important. You are an incredible person and always remember that.
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