Anxiety

18th August (Monday) - Ever wondered why when you go to every hospitals every nurses are exactly the same, except for the system flow? Cause all nurses follow the same Code of Conduct. I will admit, during my students years, I have never heard of the Code of Conduct til my final year. But when you think about it, it makes total sense. You don't see nurses walking up and down the street in full nursing regalia. There's a lot of things in the Code of Conduct that we aren't supposed to do. Listing everything down will be too long and I'm sure no one wants to know whole Code of Conduct from A-Z. It's just basically the do's and don'ts of being a nurse.
If you have been following the blog so far, you'll noticed I haven't been doing anything much that is related to nursing. But good news is... We are allowed to do admissions ( No names allowed, strictly speaking). After my two friends were given the chance to do, I was given a chance too as there were many admissions. Just nice for each of us. I got a Chinese Christian lady and... I was worried she don't speak much English since she greeted me in Cantonese, I used Mandarin instead to communicate with her. I'm still not sure how the room is supposed to be, but I think I managed to more or less cover all the key points. The only part which I needed help is on the time swap on surgery cases. Don't ask me why but that's how things are, and it's a good thing my friends were there to back me up so that we are able to reinforce the point.
Fast forward to after lunch, we were given a preview of the yearly appraisal evaluation sheet. Looking it form back to forth, I felt a slightly sinking feeling in my stomach. The past three years of college life should have prepared me for evaluations, especially on an every 6 month basis, but this is ten times scarier. It basically evaluates on everything, from the assessment to the planning, to the care given, to how you carry yourself from punctuality to appearance, to your documentation to your skills to your critical thinking and etc etc. Yikes.
Before the session ended, we managed to observe a patient on chemotherapy. Well, it's just basically health education and giving him care. I never knew chemotherapy have so many things to care for, besides the usual pain, fever and basic care. Chemo drugs are high in toxicity and has to be run fast. I wished I had gotten the chance to meet chemo patients during my student time, but I fear it's a little too late. Now my heart can't stop jumping at the thought of handling chemo drugs. ><