17th September (Wednesday) - Morning shift once more, and then I'll be having a day off. My mood wasn't good because of a certain someone. She always condemn me for being fat, fat, fat, fat. Every single day is always, "You're so fat and ugly. You should be thin like those stick models." Well, sorry for not being stick thin. Sorry for trying to cut back in eating then forcing me to eat a lot. Last time my patients won't even let me carry them cause I was such a scrawny kid who looks like I can drop at any moment, but with the right amount of food I managed to gain some weight that makes me look healthier than before that gives patient faith in me. Sigh, I used to have eating disorders for a while and got tons of gastric problems, so painful til one time I nearly passed out. Whatever, enough of my eating disorder problems.
So today I had the honour to take uncle for a shower, so off I go, dressed out in full apron to protect my clothes from being damp and gloves. So I gave uncle a good shower, form top to bottom, wash his hair, wash his back, make sure he brush his teeth, and made sure he smelled like strawberries. Mmm... Uncle always smells like strawberries thanks to his Body Shop strawberry shower gel and strawberry cream butter. Uncle then showed me a book that he's planning to publish on the 21st (No, he's not an author, he's a publisher) by showing me the rough concept of the book. The cover and the loosely bound book by threads, but the original one will be a hard cover with proper photo jackets and all. I'm sure it'll turn out wonderful.
Then with the usual feeding, I went to break quite late. But even before lunch, my mood was spoiled by s staff nurse, she doesn't work in the ward, but in the clinic. Holy, I swear, if it wasn't for the training I received for three years, I might end up screaming at her. Seriously, I've been doing some procedures for these past few weeks on my own and she actually have the cheek to say that my college sucks, oh yes. Who wouldn't get pissed? And I've only been here for a month, and she has been here for a long time, of course it's natural for her to be good at things. Come on, it's like comparing a rabbit and a tiger.
*mutter, mutter* It's one thing for the ward nurses to push me, but not a clinic staff. Grrrr. I get it that there are senior staff nurses who bully new doctors, senior staff nurses bullying new staff, but a clinic staff bullying a ward staff is OUT of the question. Or maybe it's just my thought. I'm going to avoid her now that I know her.
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